I am an artist. My name is Chris Rusak. I write text.
(text was how I used to vent)

I have finished three rather labor intensive collages that are all completely abstract. I have begun a fourth now, integrating several types of media. I have generally been focused on the deconstruction of my personal beliefs while working. I found a sledgehammer and I’ve used it. The sledgehammer worries me, though. It requires great strength and I might not be able to keep using it.

I feel as if we are unfairly indoctrinated as children. We are generally forced into the belief systems of our parents, whether it be religious tradition or racist epithets, delicate habits or unhealthy escapes. Our continual exposure leads us to believe it is normal; normal in that this is what everyone else should be doing.

This is a hard task, deconstruction, as the external beliefs and ideas have now become wallpapered into the structure. One cannot simply raze and rebuild because to do so would remove all boundaries for the energy contained. Instead, one must carefully peel away when the structure is strong, leaving only the designs that seem fit, and when the structure is weak, one must appreciate the supple bandage that has held things together but now infecting the site.