text • chris rusak

12-13-08

Choice.

Over the course of the past two weeks I have learned a lot about my self, and I must partially credit this exposition to two wonderful people in my life who reflected the light I was on some level afraid to believe with my eyes.

What I realized was this: I have incredible strength that intimidates people by revealing their own weaknesses; I am not as afraid of external judgment as I have been conditioned to believe; that the failures in experience are often champion revelations of truth; truly, we have all that we need right here with us already.

While many many people do not understand me, as much as I do not understand many many others, I do understand my self. I know my history and process, I know my light and I respect my darkness, I know the echo of truth. I know that pain recedes, as does frustration, if I let it. I am in control as much as I can choose not to be.

Looking back on youthful lakes, pits of old sadness now filled with confidence that the rain will create puddles in the cracks of the earth ahead.