Brave men run in my family.
Sometimes you just realize you are never going to have an experience that you desire. An idea will remain in fantasy alone, trapped, lacking the proper actors to play the role. And while we use experiences to fix our ideas, some ideas are indelible, unchangeable, and solid.
This is okay. The human process is made with an infinite number of ideas and experiences to have. And while we may sometimes repeat the same ones over and over, improving upon it each time we go, occasionally a new idea and experience comes to the surface for us to share. There is permanence in death, there is permanence in loss, there is a permanence to a moment lost in the past.
Ideas remain well on after the expiry of their birthright… to both our benefit and to our own demise.